So…I had the “pre-op” appt with the reconstructive surgeon office on Friday. As much as I love my Dr…I couldn’t have, nor did I realize what I was about to show up for. Let me give you the short version…the REALITY BUS RAN ME OVER AND THEN BACKED UP!!! OMG! I think it caused me to either go into either:
A). Denial (well kinda ok with that for now)
B). Reality (Sounds like a TERRIBLE idea) well I know I HAVE TO DO.
C.) YOUR SOLUTION: (Insert Answer Here)…or call/email/text/FaceTime).
In the meantime, THIS first device (called the “expander” is going to be put into my body)…Well that’s after they remove everything else…And then I’ll apparently get 4 drains (pic 2)…hanging out of my body. And I remember the term (stitched to you) for approx 2 weeks.
I am OFFICIALLY starting to get anxiety!!! WHY ME??? I changed my mind!!! STOP! I can’t get my mind to quit!
In other news…Tallon had Bellaire Little League Opening Day…SO CUTE!!! More soon…but, in the meantime…(and in regular life-happenings)…lets go UH Cougar Baseball!!! This team and organization means the world to me!! #GOCOOGS!!! ⚾️❤️⚾️❤️⚾️
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Tara- you will get thru this, you are one of the strongest most energetic positive people I Know…. focus on the positive and your adorable fAmily, this is a small bump in the road. You’ve got a lot of people on #teamtara praying for you and who will be there throughout the process. You’ve got this!
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did you ever sleep before all of this? just saying!!!!!!!!!!!! pray pray pray! praying with you to cast out all fear!
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I Love YOU because YOU are brave and strong / and one Helluva loyal and caring Mom & Wife!!! The FEAR of the unknown is part of everyone’s being, YOU are no exception. It’s natural, but what isn’t / is your out-going and wonderful personality and your gorgeous smile!!! YES, there is the ‘other side’ of your journeyand and that glorious day will come!!!
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Praying for you and your beautiful family! You are one of the sweetest strongest people I know! I remember how you and Leslie welcomed me with open arms to MHS on my first day there, and showed me the ropes. You’ve got this girl! 💪🏻💞
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Ride with the tide and go with the flow. Remember many women have had sucusseful reconstructive surgery and many more will have it after you’ve had yours. When your feeling afraid and your mind is ruminating, tell yourself “self” LOL old Saturday night live joke😎 I have so much to be grateful for I’m going to feel happy and positive.
Having cancer I learned that I’m not in control, practice “letting go” of your fears. xoxoxo BK
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You are not alone. Your reaching out with this blog is strengthening you. Read the book “write it down. Make it happen. “
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